Busy Bee!

EXHAUSTED!

personal matters:

• meetings with house developer
• going to the banks and epf
• meetings with lawyer and financial consultant
• preparing docs for bank loan application and s&p

family matters:

• my big bro's wedding : Bidor (20-21 Feb) - had to travel Manjung - Bidor - KL- Bidor - Manjung in 2 days. Gombak (28 Feb) - this coming weekend.
• sew the baju kurung sedondon for the wedding (manik belum jahit lagi.. sempat ke siap nih?)
• sew wafiy's baju melayu sedondon (huhu.. start pun belum lagi nih.. aduhaii).

school matters :

• Raptai perbarisan sukan (2 days.. kena berjemur tgh panas)
• Temasya Olahraga (25 Feb)
• Meeting with PPD (24 Feb)

And all happen to be in the same week!?!.. :( ... letihnya..

Wafiy nak tu!

Macam biasa, hari ni pick up wafiy from daycare at 6 pm. Sampai aje depan pintu..

wafiy : mama, ambil la tu.
me : mana boleh ambik.
wafiy : ala mama.. mama angkat la.. wafiy nak tu
me: x bolelah.. tu bukan mama punya.. nanti mama dia cari macam mana
wafiy : taaakk! wafiy nak jugak.. wafiy nak tu!
me: kalau mama ambil, nanti sape nak jaga?
wafiy : wafiy la jaga
me: sape nak mandikan dia?
wafiy : wafiy
me: sape nak bagikan dia susu?
wafiy : mama buatla susu.. wafiy bagi
me : eh.. camtu pulak.. x bolelah.. nanti mama dia marah
wafiy : taaak! mamaaa! wafiy nak tu! wafiy nak jugak! mama angkatla! wafiy nak tu! wafiy nak tu! wafiy nak tuuu!!(dah menangis meraung-raung la plak depan pintu)

dalam hati ni : alahaaiiii anak omak nih..

nak tau ape bendenya yang 'tu' tu? ada baby nih kat taska yg wafiy mmg suka giler. baby tu umur 6 bulan tapi chubby kemain. Kulitnya putih, mata dan kening baby tuh  ala ala orang mongolia. maybe mmg descendant ghengis khan kot sebab nama dia fairuz khan. haha.

anyway.. kesian gak kat wafiy.. mmg dah nak adik sangat-sangat. slalu suruh orang panggil dia abang. dia sendiri pun slalu cakap "wafiy abang". kalau tanya nak baby ke, dia mesti cakap nak. pastu tanya nak baby girl ke boy.. he always says "baby boy!".. oowwhh cari geng rupenye.. x pelah. sabarlah ye nak.. insya Allah adela baby tu nanti.

Weekend Getaway - Copthorne Orchid Hotel

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Peace!! wafiy and mama aza swimming. lupa nak bawak swimming cap.. terpaksalah pakai tudung je.

The pool is shaded by the hotel building. Nice! kurang sket sunburn. Kalau tengok bebetul gambar tu ada mat dan minah saleh kat blakang tu tgh berjemur.

wafiy and mama Aza on ferry. wafiy tgh senyum colgate.

Wafiy and papa awin on ferry. Masing-masing membesar bagai johan.

 Last weekend, my dear husband ajak pergi berilek-rilek di Penang. Sape x nak kan.. sure on! So we decided to stay one night at Copthorne Orchid Hotel at Tanjung Bungah. memang syiokkk! sampai-sampai je.. rehat kejap dan terus bersantai-santai dan berenang di swimming pool. Hotel tu pun ada private beach yg bersih. Banyak foreigners stay kt situ.

Hotel Copthorne Orchid nih memang highly recommended lah. The price is reasonable and the facilities are good. Next time, kalau kami pergi Penang lagi, dah x payah pening2 cari hotel, memang kami akan pilih hotel nih. 

Thanks to my dear husband yg bawak kami jalan-jalan. I guess he wants to make up to us since he had to work on the weekend before. Kami memang rasa seronok bangat!

It is PCOS

the story goes on..

I went to the ob/gyn that my original doctor referred me to. It was 1 1/2 hour drive from Manjung to Ipoh. The doctor was kind and caring and he listened to what I had to say. I told him how anxious I am to conceive and he asked lot of questions about my menstrual history. He checked my blood test result and found out the hormon levels are not right. He then performed the transvaginal scan. He showed to me there are many small small eggs (cysts) inside my ovaries. However, these eggs couldn't matured due to the hormonal imbalance. He explained that the hormonal imbalance not only causing me to have scarce period, but also to easily gain weight, and suffering from acne and hair growth.

I noticed that I had a hair growth on my upper lip since I was a little kid. Not a nice memory though.. boys always make fun of me and say nasty things like "misai tebal ular sawa". A classmate also once asked " weh aza, kau ada janggut ke?". I also suffer from hair growth on my legs and serious acne problems since teenage years.

Finally, the doctor informed that I have a syndrome called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome or simply PCOS. There it goes. I was diagnosed to have PCOS on June 2009.

However, it broke my heart that I almost going to cry when he said I will have difficulty in getting pregnant due to my condition. I said " I have a son, he's 3 yrs old", and he said "He is a MIRACLE BABY. With your condition, it is impossible to get pregnant naturally".

At this point, my weight is a constant uphill battle. Thanks to Proactive. I've been using it for 8 years now and my acne is under control. Sadly, I am still not getting pregnant despite all the treatments I've been through. But, I do not want to loose hope. Abundance of prayers and words of encouragement might help me to get through all these. Please pray for me.

Baby dust to all who's TTC

Worrying OVER WEIGHT

A year ago, I can still fit in my size 6 Levi's Jeans which I bought during my years in Minnesota. I was not too thin, and not too bulky. Just nice for a healthy and active woman like me. However, now, it is all history. My Levi's Jeans is nicely folded in my drawer and I know I am not going to wear it anytime soon.

My normal weight has always been around 53-55 kg. I think it is ideal for me as I always been a little bit muscular due to my sports activities. I noticed since Aug 2008, I has begun to put on weight excessively. Surprisingly, I gain 5 kg in 3 months. I was shocked! All my friends and even my lecturers also noticed the weight gain I had. At first, I thought it might be caused by me cutting off my sport activities. I resumed my physical activities after finishing my teaching training to shed some pounds, but sadly my determination petered out as I put on more. To confound more, I didn't menstruate for the whole year. I missed my period for months.

Later, in 2009, my dh and me decided it is time to conceive. I successfully finished my teaching training and my son is almost 3 years old. Unfortunately, I still did not menstruate until middle of the year, which means, I didn't ovulate and pregnancy is unlikely to happen. That was the turning point that I feel something wrong is happening inside my body. I decided to see my local doctor and she referred me to an ob/gyn specialist at HPP.

to be continued.......