Seeking New Hope

For the past 2 weeks, i've been communicating with a doctor from Bangkok regarding wafiy's case. Her name is Dr.Amnuay Jirasirikul and he is a certified Ponseti method to treat clubfoot. I got his email from a blog (clubfootmalaysia.blogspot.com). The author, Ina has a daughter with unilateral clubfoot (means only one foot is affected) and received treatment from Dr.Amnuay and the result sounds promising.

So, I thought why don't I just give it a try. Moreover, I intend to seek for a second opinion regarding wafiy's condition, so why not asking the right person. Therefore, I sent an email, expain in details wafiy's foot condition, his treatment and surgical history, photos of his foot.. and how much we need his expert opinion and how much we hope to see wafiy's foot to be normal but not through another agonizing and depressing surgery.

To my surprised, after few hours, he replied my email and asking for a video of wafiy's walking.. okay.. that's a good sign.. he shows some interest.. So right away, I sent the video clip.. The next day, he came out with a plan on how he would take care of wafiy.

ding!ding!ding!.. it's a new hope for us.. :)

From his email, he wants us to meet him in Bangkok. We are sooooo excited.. However, I have my own concern.. nothing else than $$$$$$$$$$..
First, there's the flight tickets (at least 4 round trip tickets for 3 of us since both of his feet need to be recast biweekly).
Second, the accomodation (need to sleep somewhere for sure).
Third, the medical fees.

So, I mentioned to Dr.Amnuay regarding my concern. Rasa terharu sangat2 bila dia reply suruh we all just book flight tickets and he will take care of the rest.. memula sounds macam fishy, sebab tak pernah jumpa doktor akan cakap macam ni, but later i realize.. this doctor actually has a pure heart and sangat caring to help his patient. He even invited us to stay at his condo for free of charge.. alahai!.. adeker org lain nak buat macam ni.. dahla kita nih dikira sbg strangers kan.. sebab tak pernah jumpa pun lagi.. tapi dia sungguh baik hati nak offer tempat tinggal dia.. tp we all just book hotel room sebab since sekrg cuti sekolah.. bolela ronda2 bangkok.. nxt time, bolela jimat2 stay kt rumah dia sahaja.. 

Lepas discuss dengan husband, we decided to fly to Bangkok this Sunday, Dec 5th. And our appointment will be on Tuesday, Dec 7th at Bumrungrad Hospital. Because of that, I have to cut short my initial plan to take care of my mother for another week. hari isnin petang dah drive balik semula ke manjung ditemankan heroku ini, wafiy. Haritu tuk dan wan (belah papa dia) ambil dia dari manjung dan bawak balik kl. So terpaksa la angkut dia semula balik manjung to prepare the papers.

So we are all set. Can't wait to see Dr.Amnuay soon. Hope for the best. Pray for our safe trip.

First Step is always precious

 

Mama taking her first step after surgery

Aza rasa sangat berbangga dengan mama yang mempunyai semangat yang kuat. She is recuperating very well. Semua doktor, nurse dan physiotherapist sgt impressed dengan mama punya progress. Mana taknya.. by 3rd day, lutut dia dah boleh bent 30deg, by 4th day boleh bent 75deg, by 5th day.. dah boleh bent 90deg dan jalan tatih tatih guna walking aid. Physiotherapist tu punyelah suka tengok mama dah boleh bangun dan jalan.. siap tepuk-tepuk tangan lagik... Doktor-doktor dan nurse semua puji-puji my mother... since i was there most of the time.. i heard a lot of "makcik nih baguslah".. "makcik cepat ye baik".. "makcik dah boleh bengkokkan lutut ye, cepatnya" .. wahh.. rasa bangga pun ada, rasa syukur pun ye.. Alhamdulillah.. the surgery went well, and my mother is feeling good too. Mama kata dia xdelah rasa sakit sangat pun, sikit-sikit je.. sebelum surgery dulu laaaaagiii sakit katanya.

Sememangnya, my mother memang seorang yg kuat semangat. She's been thru a lot. Dan aza sangat kenal dengan perangai mama yang tak suka menyusahkan orang lain. Sebab tu dia kuatkan semangat nak cepat-cepat boleh jalan supaya senang dia bergerak sendiri tanpa perlukan bantuan orang lain. Tengoklah gambar kat atas tuh.. bukan main happy betul dia dah dapat bangun dan jalan-jalan.. Kepada yang mendoakan.. terima kasih banyak-banyak.

Walaupun menjaga org sakit di hospital can be very exhausting, tetapi.. aza rasa puas dapat jaga dan teman mama sepanjang di hospital. Bagi aza, it is time for me untuk balas balik segala pengorbanan mama. Tambahan pula.. mama lah yang jaga aza semasa dalam pantang dahulu. Teringat susah payah mama naik turun tangga hantarkan makanan, bawakkan air panas, jaga wafiy setiap pagi, sediakan kain baju semua. mama jugalah yang jaga aza dan wafiy berbulan-bulan selama kami tinggal di rumah mama supaya kami senang nak berulang-alik ke hospital setiap minggu. Mama jugalah yang menjaga, membelai, mendidik, dan memberikan sepenuh perhatian dan kasih sayang kepada wafiy sepanjang setahun aza mengikuti kpli dahulu.. tak terbalas rasanya pengorbanan-pengorbanan ini.

Kawan-kawan yang masih ada ibu.. jagalah dan belailah ibu anda sementara dia masih ada.. sekiranya dia sakit, take your time off from your busy schedule to take care of your mother.. it really does worth it...

@Hospital Selayang

 The ward 

it's really nice, clean, and organized. well, maybe because it's a first class ward, so everything is totally being cared of. if you are a visitor, no need to wait for the visiting hours. Enter anytime.. just tell the guard "wad 9A", and the guard will let you in. Owh, the sister and nurses are nice and friendly too.

The room 

my parent requested for a single bed room. Luckily, there's one available. However, the nurse mispelled my atuk's name. It should be Shlamat.. and not Shlamah lorrr!

My mother

My dearly mother tgh berdebar-debar thinking what will happen during the surgery (knee arthroplasty surgery) . Her friend bagitahu masa surgery tu nanti my mom boleh dengar doktor2 mengerjakan lutut my mom since bius separuh badan je. Tools dia sama macam tools yg my father guna untuk buat rumah.. so my mom bole dengar bunyi gerudi, bunyi tukul, bunyi grinder dan segala mcm bunyi.. hehehe.. takooooottttt!

 My bed

My bed for the past two nights and many more nights to come.... dah bawak comforter sesiap dr manjung nih untuk menambahkan keselesaan... hehe.. ada sesiapa nk ganti shift???

As of now, my mother dahpun kena surgery semlm. All went well. She's still in epidural.. so masih okay lagik.. please pray for fast recovery ye.. and sesiapa yg free, bolela dtg bawakkan aza rojak buah.. sebab rasa cam ngidam nak makan rojak buah... heheheh!

So.. Macammana?

So, based on last entry.. saya dah ambil beberapa resolution.

Pertama : Kami decide x nak pursue with the surgery. Dah try call ortho clinic hkl berpuluh-puluh kali untuk cancel surgery.. tapi tak pernah ada orang angkat telefon. Tak kisahlah tu.. sebab kalau kami tak datang for sure tak boleh buat surgery kan?!. Saya dah contact specialist dari Burumgrad Hospital, Bangkok.. namanya Dr.Amnuay regarding Wafiy's case.. So sekarang kami sedang beremail-emailan berkongsi maklumat.. tapi masih belum ada final words on how to proceed with the case.. bersabar.

Kedua : Since wafiy tak jadi nak kena operation, maknanya saya akan jadi mommysitter sahaja. Oleh kerana mama punya operation buat di Hospital Selayang.. dan sah sah saya kena tidur di hospital jaga mama.. wafiy kena lah dijaga orang lain. Mula-mula, papa dia sungguh hesitate nak jaga.. biasalah orang lelaki.. tapi semalam dia setuju juga nak jaga wafiy di manjung... haaahh!!.. legaaaa!!..  Mungkin sebab dia tanak saya bawa kereta jauh-jauh berdua dengan wafiy dan tak nak susahkan orang lain jaga wafiy.. alah! bukan susah sgt pun nak jaga.. pagi hantar rumah pengasuh, balik kerja petang ke malam, ambil semula.. malam lepas baca buku, layan dia main game, pastu gaduh-gaduh, pastu tido peluk2.. saya dah siap pesan kat pengasuh tuh kalau papa dia lambat, kasi mandi pakai baju tidur sesiap.

Ketiga : Setelah berusaha pelbagai cara untuk mengandung.. menghabiskan beratus-ratus ringgit utk treatment..tapi still tak mengandung jugak.. saya decide untuk lupakan sekejap pasal nak cuba mengandung.. tetapi.. nak lebih fokus kepada menurunkan berat badan.. huhu! Sebab specialist tuh asyik cakap kena turunkan berat badan supaya hormon tu stabil.. dia pernah bagitau maybe kalau aza dapat turunkan berat badan sama macam masa dapat mengandungkan wafiy.. maybe ada chancelah untuk aza mengandung.. mak aiii!! 10 kilo nak turun nih.. aihh!! kena buat appointment dengan dr.rozmey la pulak pasnih?? bole?! hehe...

Another Surgery? - Stress!

Wafiy is scheduled for another surgery on 3rd December. It is his 5th surgery and second this year. His latest surgery was in June. This is also means it will be his 7th time entering OT and getting full general anaesthetic. I'm worried. My head spinning. It breaks my heart to see him going through all these surgical procedures again. Should there any non-surgical treatment? The doctors.. yes, the doctors, 3 specialists take turns to examine wafiy's left foot. I can see disappointment on their faces too. They seems not sure what to do to fix wafiy's foot, until their big boss came over and suggest we need another surgery. I almost on tears. Feel anxious. Lots of doubts and thinking about the complications make it worst. Will he ever be walking like any normal kids? Stress!

My mother is also scheduled for a knee surgery. It will be on 23rd November, which is less than two weeks before wafiy's surgery. So, I'll be spending the school holidays as a mommysitter and babysitter taking care of my mother and wafiy. Am i strong enough to take good care of these two people whom i love so much? Stress!

I missed my period this month. Thought i might be pregnant since i keep having a headache and bloating. Did a hpt test this morning. It's only a line. No! I'm not pregnant. Stress!

Missing U

Sangat rindu sama hubby.. wafiy pun sangat rindu dengan papa Awin..
papa awim kalau free telefonlah kami kt sini.. nk telefon sana mahallah..
wafiy hari-hari komplen papa awin nih lambat sangat balik kerja.. tadi lepas pick up wafiy dari babysitter dia kata nampak kereta papa awin.. padahal takde pun.. siann.. nampak telefon je nak telefon papa..

rindu dirimu yeaahhhhh 
na na na na na na na

we are not asking you to come back soonest possible.. tapi lain kali, bawakla kami sekali.. hehe

Salam Lebaran

Rasanya masih terlambat untuk kami sekeluarga mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua.

Salam Lebaran!

Mohon maaf zahir dan batin atas segala keterlanjuran...  :)

Wafiy

Wafiy : Mama, nak aiskrim.
Me : Bak duit nak beli aiskrim.
Wafiy : Mama kan ada duit.
Me : Mana ada duit.
Wafiy : Ada, dalam beg mama ada banyak duit.

Me : Wafiy, kenapa gigit puting nih? Kan dah koyak lagi.
Wafiy : Takpe ler.. mama belilah baru

Ewah-ewah.. budak-budak zaman sekarang untung betul. nak ape je mesti dapat.. kalau kita dulu  nak makan McDonald sebulan sekali pun belum tentu dapat.. budak skarang kalau boleh nak makan McD setiap minggu. lagi pulak kalau area yang yg ada mcd drive thru..   camne ye? nak betulkan mind anak-anak nih yang mak bapak dia bukan tukang cap duit??

Salam Ramadhan

Salam Ramadhan to all my Muslim friends..
Semoga kita semua dilimpahi rahmat dan keberkatan di dalan bulan yang mulia ini.

hari ini baru hari kedua puasa, tetapi terasa sangat letih. dengan keadaan yang kurang sihat ( batuk dan selsema ) , cuaca yang amat panas, terasa dugaan betul berpuasa hari nih. rumah pun tunggang langgang, rasa tak larat nak kemas. kejap lagi nak masak untuk berbuka pula. sangat tidak suka bila batuk nih.. mesti lama.. ni dah 2 minggu masih tak baik-baik lagi. makan ubat pun tak baik jugak. dah tu.. badan rasa cepat penat, letih dan tak selesa. ada sorang my student lagikla.. nama dia vicknesh.. dia nih mental impairment, x pandai cakap pun.. tapi bila nampak cikgu dia nih batuk.. dia cakap "bushuukkkk!".. sabo jelah.

anyway, wafiy punye cast bukak dah last 2 weeks. unfortunately, one of the stitches ada sket problem. masuk air agaknye, jadi luka tu x kering dan ada kuning2. patutla ada bau-bau yang kurang menyenangkan. ingatkan mmg kaki dia bau macam stokin 5 minggu x basuh sebab dah lama sgt terperap, rupanya ada something wrong. haha! masa bukak cast tuh, kami dah agak mesti dasat keadaan kaki dia, skali bukak... mak aiihhh!! technician yang bukak tuh ckp ape tau " haaaa tu diaaaa! macam belacan sungai petani!"..  hehe

Tu pun nasib baik x kena tahan masuk wad. doktor suh wat daily dressing je. Alhamdulillah, skang luka tu dah makin kering. lepas nih bole gi swimming balik, bole mandi sendiri.. x larat dah nk angkat-angkat big boy nih. mengada-ngada terlebih sudaahhh..

oklah.. kepada kawan-kawan.. selamat berpuasa ye! perbanyakkan ibadah di bulan yang mulia ini.. semoga kita semua dilimpahi rahmat dan keberkatan.. doakan juga kami akan dapat cahaya mata lagi.

Sudah barai

 

 
Wafiy punye cast sudah barai.. sungguh aktif budak ini.. walaupun wafiy pakai cast, dia boleh main hentam je jalan-jalan sana sini, lari-lari, naik turun tangga, lompat-lompat, naik beskal. few days ago, masa ambil wafiy dari rumah pengasuh, pengasuh dia beritahu cast dia ada yang tertanggal, so diaorang letak cellotape. hahaha.. kelakar tengok kaki budak nih bercellotape sana sini. Balik rumah, aza cek lah cast dia, ishk ishk ishk.. yang bahagian tumit tuh dah berlubang ghupenye, dah tertanggal pun cast tuh. Dasat betullah anak aku nih.

Malam tuh, papa dia pun pergilah farmasi beli cast lain. nak top up another layer as reinforcement. tapi tak dapat yang warna yang sama. Cast asal warna biru, yang baru warna hijau.. hahaha.. hantam sajalah!

Yang best, bole pulak si wafiy nih cakap " mama, tengok nih.. dah rosak dah ni.. dah tanggal tanggal.. wafiy jalan jalan banyak sangat la mama".. haishh! tahu pun..

La ni tengok cast yang baru  nih pun macam ala-ala nak barai jugak.. sebab ada serpih-serpih warna hijau merata-rata kat dalam rumah.. huhu.. lepas nih suh papa awin letak cast warna merah pulak la ye.. biar jadi cam kaler stoking badut.. hohoho!

Our house

Tak siap pun lagi.. rumah kami yang tiang paling hujung sebelah kiri.. tak sabar nak tengok rumah ni macam mana sebab showhouse pun tak siap lagi. boleh imagine imagine je based on the house plan.. dah beli rumah nih, jadi oghang perak le teman. hah tunggu apa lagi kome, moh le kite ke manjung!

Wafiy@Hospital vs Wafiy@Home

Wafiy @ Hospital

After 6 hours of surgery, still screaming.. asking for his mom to urut2 his kaki

Wafiy @ Home

After 10 days of surgery, he already became an Ultraman Cosmos.. and keep running around the house. And yeah! he can ride his bike too with his cast on.

Cuti Sekolah ker?

cuti sekolah sudah bermula.. cuti ker?? tak macam cuti pun.. kalau orang tanya, cuti sekolah pergi mana?.. selamba je aku jawab.. sekolah lah!.. in fact, i'm at school right now, at this moment. siapa kata cikgu cuti bila cuti sekolah.. sampai sekolah tadi.. banyak je kereta cikgu kat skolah.. nih semua cikgu-cikgu yang berkorban buat kerja amal buat kelas tambahan untuk anak-anak murid. Aku? nak kena jumpa ppm bagi tugas-tugas waktu cuti sekolah nih.. dan selesaikan beberapa paperwork dan pengisian data.. huhu.. adeke.. last day of school.. hari jumaat petang haritu ppd panggil pergi mesyuarat.. kesian.. semua penyelaras dan pkpk termasuk aku pening nak kena siapkan data waktu cuti.. baru kejap tadi ada pkpk call sebab dia tak boleh masukkan data dan minta tolong dia.. nasib baik jiran.. jumpa kat rumah je lah ye 

Wafiy punye operation sepatutnya hari Isnin nih. tak konfem jadi ke tidak.. sebab dia macam berhingus balik.. macam nak kena tangguh lagi.. esok baru nak call hospital.. kalau tangguh lagi.. nampaknye dah 2 kali tangguh..

baru dapat tahu tadi one of my teachers dah mengandung.. alhamdulillah dan tahniah untuknya.. tapi aku... huhuhuhuh.. masih mengharap

Back to school

had 10 days mc. now back to school.. after a week at home.. it's really hard to move my butt back to school.. the workload is piling up.. my teachers keep calling about issues here and there.. well, it's not their fault as I always plan, do and complete my own job..

alhamdulillah.. luka masa operation harituh sudah sembuh.. terima kasih kepada kawan-kawan yang mendoakan.

one thing i figured out.. berpantang can weigh you down.. hehe

this entry should be published last week..

Nak kena operate dah

Tomorrow is my BIRTHDAY!

Esok ada meeting dengan Ketua Sektor di Tronoh dari pagi sampai petang.
Lepas meeting terus ke Pantai Putri Hospital. Admit ke wad.
Hari Khamis pagi kena operate.
Hari Jumaat insya Allah kalau takde ape-ape boleh discaj.

hari esok birthday saya. nampaknya tak selebret lah tahun nih.. takpelah.. hadiah dah dapat awal-awal.. Thanks to my dear husband for the precious gift.

Walaupun dah selalu masuk OT, rasa nervous sket-sket tuh tetap ada. selalunya, masuk OT hantar wafiy je. tunggu 2-3 jam.. masuk balik OT utk jaga wafiy masa recovery.. kali nih.. sendiri masuk OT, sendiri nk kena dioperate.  

Doa-doakanlah saya cepat sembuh ye... cepat baik.. dan cepat dapat baby lagi.. hehe.

Melawan Kesepian

Melawan Kesepian - Siti Nurhaliza

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Kesepianku

Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apapun ini
Pelajaran yang berarti

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Kesepianku

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apapun
Semoga mampu kulawan
Kesepianku

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan
Semoga mampu kulawan
Kesepianku

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti

 

MMS Family Day dan Idea Gile

Owhh.. ini cerita weekend lepas lepas. My husband's section (mill maintenance section) organized family day at Taman Rekreasi Allagar, Trong. Setelah bertahun-tahun secara rasmi menjadi isteri seorang staf tnb... inilah first time dapat join family day... kalau last year, mereka buat hari sabtu. kebetulan sekolah ganti. tak dapat nk ikut.. the year before, tengah kursus di jb.. lagila x bole nak ikut. the year before that.. ada di kl.. pun x bole join jugak...

                                        

taman rekreasi allagar nih kalau dari seri manjung adalah dalam 45 minit drive nak ke tempat tu. memula tuh cam suspen la jugak sebab dahla takde signboard, pastuh kena masuk dalam estet kelapa sawit. Tapi bila sampai tempat rekreasi tuh, kami macam waaaahhhhhhh..... syok jugak tempat nih. tempat nak mandi manda pun sesuai untuk pelbagai lapisan umur. tebing nyer pun luas.. senang nak parking dan dekat je dengan air sungai. tempatnye pun agak bersih.. mungkin sebab tak ramai sangat pengunjung since tempat tu agak outback.. memang bole masuk list tempat beristirehat kami di hari minggu.. hehe

So i took this opportunity to know anak-anak buah my husband and the wifeys. ye lah.. tak semua slalu jumpa.. On that day, aktiviti makan-makan adalah perkara wajib.. barbeque lagik.. acara sukaneka.. dan semestinya acara mandi manda.. kesian all the wifeys.. terpaksa berusaha memujuk anak-anak yang sudah tidak sabar nak terjun ke dalam sungai sementara menunggu acara sukaneka tamat.. including me.. dahla wafiy dah siap pakai swimming suit dari rumah tuu.. selang 5 min.. dia cakap.. "mama.. nak swimming". haha.. fenin dibuatnye.

We start early in the morning and habis dlm around 2.30 pm. we didn't come back empty handed. I won first place for acara masukkan benang ke dalam jarum.. haha.. dah agak memang bole menang.. mane taknye.. hari-hari mengajar budak jahit cross-stitch. my husband felt little bit disappointed. his favorite acara lari mengundur tidak dipertandingkan.. it's ok honey.. maybe next year k.

Since Trong memang dah dekat sangat dengan Taiping, on the way back.. we decided to head up to Taiping.. maybe bole pegi makan-makan yong tau fu kat bomba. but when we almost reached tol changkat jering, my husband asked " nak pegi Taiping ke Penang?".. i was like "huh?gi penang pun best jugak nih!" "So, nak pegi Penang ke Taiping?" "Kita toss coin lah. haha. Tapi aza rasa cam nak gi penang lah." hahahaha... so instead of we going straight to Taiping, my husband turn left.. right into the toll house... and wallaa... we are on our way to Penang with only our wet clothes in our bag.. tak ke kerja gile namenye.. hahahahhaha! but.. that's us!

Finally, we reached Penang sehelai sepinggang due to our crazy idea.. and we decided to spend the night there. So malam tu.. kami shopping spree baju luar dan dalam untuk dipakai esoknya... kekeke.. tapi kesian wafiy.. dalam kereta dia cakap " mama beli baju ye.. papa pun beli baju.. baju wafiy?".. opppsss... kami syok sangat beli baju sendiri sampai terlupa baju anak.. hahaha.. baju wafiy esok jelah ye.. lagipun mama bawa baju wafiy lebih.

Esoknya, kami beli jeruk dan pusing satu pulau.. dah lama tak ronda-ronda kat penang.. asyik pegi shopping mall je.. so this time, kami tak pegi shopping mall.. tapi pusing satu pulau.. dari georgetown ke batu feringgi ke balik pulau ke bayan lepas.. dan singgah la jugak ke BJ mall sebab nak cuci mata hilangkan ngantuk.

Well, ini bukan kali pertama buat idea gila-gila macam nih.. setiap kali weekend.. i always need to be prepared.. kang adela tuh.. yang jom pegi sana.. jom pegi sini.. walaupun penat.. tapi berbaloi-baloi.. sebab dapat spend quality time with my husband and wafiy. Moreover, we both love to travel.. so pegi mana-mana pun.. ON ajer.. hehe

Rindu rinduan

me : wafiy, tadi papa call. papa kata dia rindu kat wafiy.
wafiy : papa awin rindu wafiy??!hahaha
me : wafiy tak rindu papa ke?
wafiy : mmm... wafiy rindu donat ngan karipap
me : hah?
wafiy : wafiy rindu donat dengan karipap lar. papa awin hantar wafiy pegi skolah ada donat ngan karipap. mama aza hantar wafiy takde donat ngan karipap.
me : hahaha!

papa awin.. cepat balik! wafiy rindu donat ngan karipap nihhhh!

The doctor said....

I need to go through surgical treatment called Laparoscopic Ovarian Drilling (LOD) since the medical treatment failed to fix my ovulation and menstrual problem. I asked for a second IUI, but he informed that IUI is not the best treatment at the moment since my body is not responding well with the medication, thus, ovulation is hardly can occur. Therefore, chances of getting successful IUI is pretty slim. Rather than wasting money and time, LOD is the best option as it fix the hormone level and regulate the menstruation.


Here is some information regarding Laparoscopic Ovarian Drilling (LOD) procedure :

Source : http://women.webmd.com/laparoscopic-ovarian-drilling-ovarian-diathermy-for-pcos

Laparoscopic ovarian drilling (ovarian diathermy) for PCOS

Laparoscopic ovarian drilling is a surgical treatment that can trigger ovulation in women with polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). Electrocautery or a laser is used to destroy parts of the ovaries.

This surgery is not commonly used. But it can be an option for women who are still not ovulating after losing weight and trying fertility medicines.

Ovarian drilling is usually done through a small incision (laparoscopy), with general anesthesia. The surgeon makes a small cut (incision) in the abdomen at the belly button. The surgeon then places a tube to inflate the abdomen with a small amount of carbon dioxide gas so that he or she can insert the viewing instrument (laparoscope) without damage to the internal organs. The surgeon looks through the laparoscope at the internal organs. Surgical instruments may be inserted through the same incision or other small incisions in the pelvic area.

Because the incisions are so small, laparoscopy is often called "Band-Aid surgery."

What To Expect After Surgery

If you have a laparoscopy procedure, you will likely go home the same day and can do your normal activities within 24 hours. Your return to normal activities will depend on how quickly you recover from surgery, which may take a few days or as long as 2 to 4 weeks.

Why It Is Done

Ovarian drilling is sometimes used for women with PCOS who are still not ovulating after trying weight loss and fertility medicine. Destroying part of the ovaries has been reported to restore regular ovulation cycles.¹

How Well It Works

Studies of women with PCOS have shown that ovarian drilling results in an 80% ovulation rate and a 50% pregnancy rate.¹

Younger women and those with a body mass index in the normal range are most likely to benefit from laparoscopic ovarian drilling.²

Risks

Risks of laparoscopy include:

• Infection of the incision.
• Bleeding from the incision.
• Internal bleeding.
• Accidental injury to internal organs or major blood vessels, from the laparoscope or surgical instruments.
• Pain after the procedure, from inflating the abdomen with gas.
• Problems caused by anesthesia.
• Adhesions or scarring inside the body.

What To Think About

No randomized controlled trials have been used to study this treatment for starting ovulation:¹

• Ovulation and pregnancy rates are based on reports of about 1,000 women.
• Live birth rates, which are the true measure of treatment success, are not available and are probably less than 50%.

At the moment, I am taking Duphaston to trigger my menstruation. In Day 2- Day 5, blood test must be done. And I'll meet again with my specialist in early May to schedule the surgery. I'm hoping to schedule it latest in middle of May, since Wafiy's surgery is rescheduled in early June. hmm... semua nak kena operate nih.. fiy, my dad just had his eye surgery last Monday.

Doakanlah yang terbaik untuk kami yaaaa...... 

Want to see some photos?

The blue circle indicate the ovary. The black holes are numerous small cysts.

                                                           


That's the ovary (the white color thing).

Ovary after LOD procedure. banyak lubang-lubang.






Here is a video of the procedure... 

Should I?

Am thinking.

Should I resume my treatment for PCOS?

I don't know if i'm ready for the frequent 2-hour trips to ipoh.
I don't know if i can still afford to pay for the fertility medication.
i don't know if i will get the very much needed support.
i don't know if i still have the strength to face the emotional roller coster along the journey.

But what I really do know,
I do want to have another bundle of joy so badly.


Allah, please give me strength...

PIPKBP SMK Ambrose : Lawatan Sambil Belajar ke BSN Sitiawan

Semenjak dua menjak nih tersangatlah busy dengan program-program di sekolah. baru je semlm selesai temasya olahraga pendidikan khas daerah manjung. habis makin hitam kulit nih.. nampak gaya macam x sempat nk cerah akan hitam balik nih.. sebab lepas nih ada karnival permainan pulak. walaupun hitam atau penat, tapi hati tetap rasa seronok bila tengok pelajar-pelajar istimewa nih enjoy tak hengat dapat join macam-macam aktiviti sama seperti pelajar normal.

anyway.. here are some photos during our educational trip to BSN cawangan Sitiawan which was held on 1st April. 

Sebelum pergi, kita makan dulu!!

 

Faham ke tu?? macam blur blur je semua dengar taklimat dr pegawai BSN

Izzat : Rizuwan, tolong tengok duit aku ada berapa dalam bank nih?
Rizuwan : Uish, banyak nih. berjuta-juta lemon!

Hazwan tak reti tulis ye, takpe, Cikgu Hadiah tolong tuliskan ye.

Pelajar-pelajar berlatih berinteraksi dengan melakukan transaksi di kaunter.

 Say cheese!
bergambar bersama pegawai-pegawai BSN.

Ehem! Cikgu Aza yang cun melecun sedang memberi ucapan terima kasih dan penghargaan kepada pihak BSN cawangan Sitiawan.

 Part paling best setiap kali lawatan.
 Dapat souvenir!

Nyum!nyum!nyum! sedapnye makan kfc.













sebelum balik, kita makan aiskrim dulu yok!









**PIPKBP : Program Integrasi Pendidikan Khas Bermasalah Pembelajaran. **

Kena potong tak?

Esok wafiy akan kena admit ke Institut Pediatrik HKL untuk buat surgery. Owh, ini surgery yang ke-4 to fix his feet. But this time, only the left foot. Tinggal sikiiiiiitttt lagi nak betulkan. Operation is scheduled on Monday. Kalau betul2 on.. x taula giliran ke berapa sebab dia dah besar. Kalau dulu-dulu.. selalu dia yang first dulu akan masuk OT, pukul 7.30am dah get ready nak masuk dah. yang x tahan tu, kalau lambat masuk.. means lama la dia nak puasa. takut dia meraung-raung je nanti nak susu. on the other hand, dia ada selsema sikit. Sepatutnya, 2 weeks before operation tak bole ada selsema, batuk atau demam. rasa-rasa macam nak kena reject dgn dr.bius esok nih. tak tahulah.. kami plan nak pergi je dulu.. kalau dia kata tak boleh buat.. boleh terus setup date baru.

To prepare wafiy nak kena operation, awal-awal lagi kami selalu pesan kat dia ;

"wafiy, nanti kita nak pergi hospital tau,. Doktor nak cek kaki wafiy pastu nak betulkan kaki wafiy. doktor nak kasi kaki wafiy jadi cantik. nanti kita duduk sama sama kat hospital ok!"

Wafiy akan cakap :

"ok! tapi kena potong tak? kalau potong wafiy tak nak.. cek ajer tau.. tak nak potong"

Nak sedapkan hati dia :

"Taakk... doktor tak potong. Dia tebuk ajer."

wafiy akan cakap lagi :

"Ok! tak nak potong tau!"

hahaha.. dia tak tahu lagi maksud tebuk tu apa.

Doa doakanlah semuanya selamat ye!

Busy Bee!

EXHAUSTED!

personal matters:

• meetings with house developer
• going to the banks and epf
• meetings with lawyer and financial consultant
• preparing docs for bank loan application and s&p

family matters:

• my big bro's wedding : Bidor (20-21 Feb) - had to travel Manjung - Bidor - KL- Bidor - Manjung in 2 days. Gombak (28 Feb) - this coming weekend.
• sew the baju kurung sedondon for the wedding (manik belum jahit lagi.. sempat ke siap nih?)
• sew wafiy's baju melayu sedondon (huhu.. start pun belum lagi nih.. aduhaii).

school matters :

• Raptai perbarisan sukan (2 days.. kena berjemur tgh panas)
• Temasya Olahraga (25 Feb)
• Meeting with PPD (24 Feb)

And all happen to be in the same week!?!.. :( ... letihnya..

Wafiy nak tu!

Macam biasa, hari ni pick up wafiy from daycare at 6 pm. Sampai aje depan pintu..

wafiy : mama, ambil la tu.
me : mana boleh ambik.
wafiy : ala mama.. mama angkat la.. wafiy nak tu
me: x bolelah.. tu bukan mama punya.. nanti mama dia cari macam mana
wafiy : taaakk! wafiy nak jugak.. wafiy nak tu!
me: kalau mama ambil, nanti sape nak jaga?
wafiy : wafiy la jaga
me: sape nak mandikan dia?
wafiy : wafiy
me: sape nak bagikan dia susu?
wafiy : mama buatla susu.. wafiy bagi
me : eh.. camtu pulak.. x bolelah.. nanti mama dia marah
wafiy : taaak! mamaaa! wafiy nak tu! wafiy nak jugak! mama angkatla! wafiy nak tu! wafiy nak tu! wafiy nak tuuu!!(dah menangis meraung-raung la plak depan pintu)

dalam hati ni : alahaaiiii anak omak nih..

nak tau ape bendenya yang 'tu' tu? ada baby nih kat taska yg wafiy mmg suka giler. baby tu umur 6 bulan tapi chubby kemain. Kulitnya putih, mata dan kening baby tuh  ala ala orang mongolia. maybe mmg descendant ghengis khan kot sebab nama dia fairuz khan. haha.

anyway.. kesian gak kat wafiy.. mmg dah nak adik sangat-sangat. slalu suruh orang panggil dia abang. dia sendiri pun slalu cakap "wafiy abang". kalau tanya nak baby ke, dia mesti cakap nak. pastu tanya nak baby girl ke boy.. he always says "baby boy!".. oowwhh cari geng rupenye.. x pelah. sabarlah ye nak.. insya Allah adela baby tu nanti.

Weekend Getaway - Copthorne Orchid Hotel

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Peace!! wafiy and mama aza swimming. lupa nak bawak swimming cap.. terpaksalah pakai tudung je.

The pool is shaded by the hotel building. Nice! kurang sket sunburn. Kalau tengok bebetul gambar tu ada mat dan minah saleh kat blakang tu tgh berjemur.

wafiy and mama Aza on ferry. wafiy tgh senyum colgate.

Wafiy and papa awin on ferry. Masing-masing membesar bagai johan.

 Last weekend, my dear husband ajak pergi berilek-rilek di Penang. Sape x nak kan.. sure on! So we decided to stay one night at Copthorne Orchid Hotel at Tanjung Bungah. memang syiokkk! sampai-sampai je.. rehat kejap dan terus bersantai-santai dan berenang di swimming pool. Hotel tu pun ada private beach yg bersih. Banyak foreigners stay kt situ.

Hotel Copthorne Orchid nih memang highly recommended lah. The price is reasonable and the facilities are good. Next time, kalau kami pergi Penang lagi, dah x payah pening2 cari hotel, memang kami akan pilih hotel nih. 

Thanks to my dear husband yg bawak kami jalan-jalan. I guess he wants to make up to us since he had to work on the weekend before. Kami memang rasa seronok bangat!

It is PCOS

the story goes on..

I went to the ob/gyn that my original doctor referred me to. It was 1 1/2 hour drive from Manjung to Ipoh. The doctor was kind and caring and he listened to what I had to say. I told him how anxious I am to conceive and he asked lot of questions about my menstrual history. He checked my blood test result and found out the hormon levels are not right. He then performed the transvaginal scan. He showed to me there are many small small eggs (cysts) inside my ovaries. However, these eggs couldn't matured due to the hormonal imbalance. He explained that the hormonal imbalance not only causing me to have scarce period, but also to easily gain weight, and suffering from acne and hair growth.

I noticed that I had a hair growth on my upper lip since I was a little kid. Not a nice memory though.. boys always make fun of me and say nasty things like "misai tebal ular sawa". A classmate also once asked " weh aza, kau ada janggut ke?". I also suffer from hair growth on my legs and serious acne problems since teenage years.

Finally, the doctor informed that I have a syndrome called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome or simply PCOS. There it goes. I was diagnosed to have PCOS on June 2009.

However, it broke my heart that I almost going to cry when he said I will have difficulty in getting pregnant due to my condition. I said " I have a son, he's 3 yrs old", and he said "He is a MIRACLE BABY. With your condition, it is impossible to get pregnant naturally".

At this point, my weight is a constant uphill battle. Thanks to Proactive. I've been using it for 8 years now and my acne is under control. Sadly, I am still not getting pregnant despite all the treatments I've been through. But, I do not want to loose hope. Abundance of prayers and words of encouragement might help me to get through all these. Please pray for me.

Baby dust to all who's TTC

Worrying OVER WEIGHT

A year ago, I can still fit in my size 6 Levi's Jeans which I bought during my years in Minnesota. I was not too thin, and not too bulky. Just nice for a healthy and active woman like me. However, now, it is all history. My Levi's Jeans is nicely folded in my drawer and I know I am not going to wear it anytime soon.

My normal weight has always been around 53-55 kg. I think it is ideal for me as I always been a little bit muscular due to my sports activities. I noticed since Aug 2008, I has begun to put on weight excessively. Surprisingly, I gain 5 kg in 3 months. I was shocked! All my friends and even my lecturers also noticed the weight gain I had. At first, I thought it might be caused by me cutting off my sport activities. I resumed my physical activities after finishing my teaching training to shed some pounds, but sadly my determination petered out as I put on more. To confound more, I didn't menstruate for the whole year. I missed my period for months.

Later, in 2009, my dh and me decided it is time to conceive. I successfully finished my teaching training and my son is almost 3 years old. Unfortunately, I still did not menstruate until middle of the year, which means, I didn't ovulate and pregnancy is unlikely to happen. That was the turning point that I feel something wrong is happening inside my body. I decided to see my local doctor and she referred me to an ob/gyn specialist at HPP.

to be continued.......

My New Toy

Yes, I have a new toy.
Nope, it's not an iPhone.

It's Kettler Rivo P Elliptical Cross Trainer

Yes, I love the machine
No, I am not playing around
Yes, I do serious about losing weight
No, I don't trust all those diet pills, diet tea, slimming programs, diet milks will do wonders to me
Yes, I believe exercise and proper diet is the healthy way to lose weight

Huh? Owh. yeah I've got free set of Kettler 3kg dumbell with the machine. it really does complement my workout program.

Ayah kata nak baiki, tapi...

  Wafiy on his bike

Balkis : Wafiy, pinjam basikal?

Wafiy : Tak boleh!

Fitri    : Apiey.. injam ekal..

Wafiy : Tak boleh.. tak boleh

Me : Balkis.. kan balkis ada basikal.

Balkis : Ada. tapi dah rosak.

Me : Apa yang rosaknye?

Balkis : Tayar dia dah rosak, dah pancit. Ayah kata nak baiki.. tapi... (dia terus terdiam)

Balkis dan Fitri ni adalah anak jiran sebelah rumahku. sayu hatiku bila mendengar ayat terakhir yang diucapkan oleh balkis. umurnya baru 7 tahun, fitri pula 2 tahun. mereka baru sahaja kehilangan ayah tersayang yang menghadap Ilahi pada awal bulan Dis haritu. mungkin, dia sendiri tidak sanggup menyebut yang ayahnya sudah tiada lagi. Akhir-akhir ini, setiap petang mereka akan datang ke rumahku untuk bermain dengan wafiy. aku layan mereka sebaik mungkin. kalau dulu, ayah merekalah yang akan membawa mereka bermain-main dan berjalan-jalan.

Balkis sebenarnya lima beradik. dia ada 2 orang abang kembar, abang long dan abang ngah. masing-masing masih di sekolah rendah lagi, baru sahaja masuk darjah 5. adik lelaki balkis yang paling kecil baru sahaja sebulan dilahirkan. beberapa hari lepas, aku datang menziarah ibu Balkis, kak ina yang masih dalam pantang dan menjenguk keadaannya sekarang. Tersentuh jiwaku ini bila terkenangkan bayi comel ini tidak sempat mengenal rupa paras ayahnya, apatah lagi mendapat ciuman dan dakapan sayang dari ayahnya. ku lihat wajah kak ina, terdetik di hatiku, tabah sungguh ibu muda ini mengharungi kehidupan tanpa suami di sisi.. membesarkan lima orang anak yang masih kecil.

Ku pandang sekeliling rumahnya, kain baju berselerak di sana sini. laman rumahnya ku lihat tidak sebersih dahulu.. ya. ketika arwah bang usop masih ada, dialah yang rajin membersihkan laman rumahnya, jarang sekali ku lihat ada sampah2 ataupun kertas-kertas flyer iklan terbiar di atas laman. arwah bang usop yang ku kenali memang rajin menolong isterinya, dialah juga yang slalu ku lihat mengambil dan menghantar anak-anaknya ke sekolah.

Kini, dia sudah tiada. pabila ku pandang wajah anak-anak kecil ini, terdetik juga dihatiku, 'mengertikah mereka ini bahawa mereka tidak akan berjumpa dengan ayah mereka lagi?' 'apakah perasaan anak-anak ini yang perlu membesar tanpa kasih sayang seorang ayah?'.. hatiku menangis.. 'mampukah aku menahan dugaan seperti ini sekiranya ayah ku atau suami ku pula yang akan pergi menghadap Ilahi?'..

 

 

Happy 29th Birthday!

Last weekend, we headed back to kl for a makan-makan event at my MIL's house. at first, i was relunctant to travel down to kl since my husband had to attend a seminar at Cameron Highland till Friday and on the next Monday, he'll be having an auditor course at shah alam. it's better for him to headed straight to kl from CH rather than coming back to manjung to fetch us. Bcoz then he needs to send us back to manjung on sunday and straight away drive back to kl to attend the auditor course on monday. kan menyusahkan diri namanya.

But he said it's ok for him, moreover, x syiokla kalau mummy dia buat makan-makan untuk dia but i was not there. Oklah! i ikut aje lah ye.. jgn demam2 udah.

Anyway, it's a decent event. Only relatives were invited and my parents as always will be in the VIP list. heheh.. the menu : satay, mee soto, nasi impit, pulut kuning (best!), rendang, fruit punch and of course.. the cake.

The cake is a blueberry cheese cake. nampak sungguh menyelerakan. tapi terkilan sket sket bcos it's one of the food that i just can't consume. huwaaaaa!!! xkn la tatau lagik yg i nih lactose intolerant.. huhuhu.. 

On a Quest

Today i am on a quest to pujuk my husband yg tgh furious with me. if u wonder why, it's becoz :

• i accidentally dropped his htc hp on the parking lot
• to only realize about it few hours later
• and it was soaked in rain
• all these happened on his BIRTHDAY

I am totally DOOMED!

so to make it up, i plan to cook masakan yang sedap2 untuk suami terchenta. jadi mission pada hari ini ialah memasak ikan siakap 3 rasa + kailan ikan masin. i once asked my husband "abg nk makan apa?" and he said "ermm.. ikan siakap 3 rasa"..and i just replied "order kt kedai jela..".. haha

akhirnya, masakan ku berjaya dihasilkan dengan cemerlang skali although it was my first trial. my dear husband pun makan sehingga menjilat pinggan dan nasi yang ditambah berkali-kali sambil memuji masakanku yg sedap itu. i see him smiling again. hatiku rasa berbunga-bunga sgt dan bersyukur. i am positive he will forgive and forget.

Mission accomplished! yeay!

www.resepi.net (gambar dan sumber:Mak lang azie)

Siakap 3 Rasa

Bahan-bahan

Ikan siakap } dikelar, dilumur dengan garam, kunyit dan tepung jagung dan digoreng rangup sampai ke tulang.
Bawang putih - ditumbuk kasar
Halia - hiris halus

Bahan sampingan, dipotong dadu

Timun
Nenas
Tomato
cili bangla

Sos tomato
Sos cili
Sos Tiram
Kicap manis

Tepung jagung untuk pekatkan kuah
Air
garam

Hiasan

Carrot-dihiris halus 
daun sup
Cili padi - dihiris halus

Cara Membuatnya

1.  Tumiskan bawang putih dan halia hingga naik bau
2. Masukkan sos cili, sos tiram (sket je), sos tomato, kicap (sket). Kacau
3. Masukkan air yang dicampur tepung jagung untuk memekatkan kuah
4. Masukkan bahan sampingan tadi dan tunggu hingga masak
5. Curahkan ke atas ikan dan hiaslah ikan biar tergoda org yg menengoknya
   

Please forgive me

Please forgive me
It just happens
Please accept my apology
I feel so miserable
I miss u

Truly.. :(

First week of school

Sekolah telah bermula.
Kerja mula bertimbun.
Kadang kala buntu apa yang perlu dibuat.
Kadang kala banyak betul perancangan yang rasa hendak dibuat.
Kadang kala hendak aja aku berkata..
"puan, tahun depan lantik orang lainlah jadi penyelaras".
Ah.. makin pening ku pikirkan.
Buat ajelah.. yang pasti.. ia yang TERBAEEKKK!

10 years ago..

on this day, ten years ago.. i was singing "Leaving on a Jet Plane" song on my way to a far far away land.

we were on a millenium flight with MAS. half of the plane was empty due to ppl were paranoid to Y2K bug. but for us, 27 malaysian students, it was a great experience. since the plane was half empty, most of us chop seat sebaris sorang so syiok sket nk tido along the journey. we had 3 transits (Narita, LA, Chicago O'hare) before reaching our destination, Minneapolis. Sungguh penat.. Total travelling hour is >27 hours ( more than a day tau). I still remember how jakun we were once we arrived at Chicago O'hare Airport with the snowy weather. And how nervous I was when i see a land full of snow blanket. I was like "Bole ke aku hidup kt tmpt macam ni?" haha.. but somehow.. living 4 years in a far far away land was a spectacular experience.. I am blessed to get the opportunity to be there.

p/s: owh.. masa smpi di Minneapolis, saya mmg teramat jakun giler kerana first time tengok n sentuh real snow.. huhu

Calories... Sayonara

burn a lot of calories today.. overhauling my house.. well.. not the whole house.. at least part of it.. been sweating the whole day.. and i smell stink.. stay fit ppl!